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je crois que je vais arrêter mon blog pour quelque temps..
le temps de remettre mes idées en place.
par contre, j'écris de plus en plus de notes sur facebook si ça vous intéresse...

And I'm up, down, I'm spinning around. High and dry and kicked to the ground. I'm lost and I'll never be found. My lips were much too shy. The lines about you, they never rhymed. You said I never get things right. I never said I was the best thing for you. And baby, where'd you go? I need you here tonight. Singing myself to sleep. You're still my favorite melody. It's been three weeks. How long can this go on? Singing myself to sleep. And you're haunting every memory. Get out, goodbye. Get out of my life. Goodnight. And you're hot, cold. You're not available. You run while I lose control. I miss you. Forever you'll stay gold. You know I'm not getting by. I've lost it, you're in my mind. And everyday's the darkest of my life. I never said I was the best thing for you. Baby, where'd you go? I need you here tonight. Singing myself to sleep. You're still my favorite melody. It's been three weeks. How long can this go on? Singing myself to sleep. And you're haunting every memory. Get out, goodbye, get out of my life 'cause I'm drowning when I close my eyes. And I'm fallin', can't breath tonight. And a story I fade to black inside, I never said I was the best thing for you. Singing myself to sleep. You're still my favorite melody. It's been three weeks. How long can this go on? Singing myself to sleep. And you're haunting every memory. Get out, goodbye, get out of my life.

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people_._...will_..._forget_...._whαt_._..you_.._..d i d,
but people will never forget how you made them f e e l."

music is in my soul.

I try and live a good, hate-free life. I'm a nice person, I love people, I talk to anyone. If there's ever a kid at school sitting by himself, I'll talk to him. I love meeting new people, message me. We'll talk about anything.

I don't like people who make fun of other people, it's not a very nice thing to do.

Life is good for a day, then shitty for 3 weeks straight. If you think this all sounds stupid, then quit reading.

Even when people do bad things to me, I still pray for them and be nice to them. I love life, but my parents always come in and make me feel like shit again. Then they try and make me feel better, then like shit again.

I argue a lot, but only if I know that I'm right. I'll never argue if I know that I'm going to lose, therefore, I almost never lose arguments. Especially against my parents, this is why they don't argue with me anymore.

I take things like drinking, smoking, lying, cheating, and sex too seriously. But I feel they should be taken seriously. I don't call myself straight edge, it's too cliché. I don't smoke, or do any type of drugs. I don't because I hate how it dumbs people down. I hate how girls go out and drink, then end up having promiscuous sex with the closest available person. Because eventually, they end up doing it again. It's like, if you stabbed yourself in the hand once, why would you want to do it again? A lot of shit doesn't make sense to me.

I may seem like a really boring, straight-laced person, but I am in no way even close. I do bad shit. I lie. I cheat on lots of test I take. Sometimes I can be pretty mean. I hate myself most of the time, but then again, self-loathing never gets anyone anywhere. I rant a lot.
If you don't like it, delete me and never talk to me ever again.

I like music. I play music. I listen to about 5 to 8 hours of music a day. I love emotional music. In fact, I like almost every kind of music. I like anything from Taking Back Sunday to Tryo. My favourite bands are a cursive memory, blink 182, forever the sickest kids and the maine. Right now, I'm listening to Farewell through music, you should go to see their MySpace they're very talented.

I take half of the things in life way too seriously, which is probably the reason why I almost never get in trouble. I like getting hurt, it's hilarious. It's even funnier watching my friends get hurt, if it's all in the name of humour.

I mess up a lot, but then fix it. I handle things myself pretty well, and never need advice from anyone. Sounds pretty cocky, but I just know how to handle all the situations I put myself in.

Whenever I feel like shit, I lay in the grass and let the wind pass me by. That's when I think the best and that's the time that I think about how to solve all the shit I'm in.

Get to know me, I'm an extremely interesting person. Somehow I have this weird feeling that I am the only real person in the world, and somehow the world is just a figment of my imagination. Or like, all the people in the world are real, but we're all hooked up to machines and all life in alternate dimensions. Sounds weird, but that's what I think about when I'm alone. I'm pretty weird, but not really. Talk to me, I'm probably the most chill and average kid you'll ever meet.

I don't like asking people for advice, because I hate bugging people. I don't like when people take time out of their day for me, it makes me feel needy.

I like the feeling of summer when you can think about weird shit and it seems normal. I have a feeling that dogs can really understand what you say to them when you talk to them. I also have a feeling that everyone in the world feels the same exact things, they just don't know it. You know how sometimes you think everything is happening JUST to you? Well, either you're the only real person in the world and everyone else is just a figment of your imagination, or everyone in the world feels the same exact way. I don't know. I guess you'd have to ask everyone in the world to make sure, but that's physical impossible.

I think people are dumb. I'm dumb too. But if everyone in the world is dumb, then that means that no one is dumb. Everyone's on the same level. But then again, all we need a little time to step back and think, and we wouldn't have all the problems we have.

I hate politics. I hate George Bush, but not because "he's a dumbass." Cause if you're a person who is saying that, then you're a dumbass too for not being able to come up with a good reason. Baseball players are dumbasses too, and most football players probably don't even have proper grammar, but we still worship them. Don't hate someone cause he's stupid, cause whoever you worship is probably not that smart either.

I like when it's around 6:30 during summer, when there is no one on the streets, and you can just sit on the pavement and look up at the sky. I think there is a lot of beauty in the world.

Bryce Avary is my idol. Seriously did you ever listen to his music? The lyrics are amazing. And the chords just make me smile each time I'm listening to the rocket summer. He composed every single thing in all TRS albums. He plays everything. Drums, guitar, bass, piano, everything. And he's a very nice person.

I hate really emotional people. They always bring everyone down. I am emotional, but not too emotional. I don't see the use in crying over everything that happens.

Right now is a really beautiful time. I keep looking outside, searching for things to write. I like the care-free feeling. I love writing like this, I do it a lot. This is probably the first time I've done it and showed it to people. I'm scared people will think I'm weird, but I guess it's okay because I am.

No one understands me, unless they've layed in the grass and stared at the sky like I have. To get the feeling that I have all the time, wait until 7:00 P.M. on a warm (not hot) summer day, and go out in your backyard. Lay in the grass, look up at a tree overhanging you and reflect on every that has ever happened in your life.

I am alone in this world. I just thought about how lonely I was. Even when if I have tons of friends, I feel lonely. One day, I hope I'll find that someone. The one who will make me feel right and for once, not alone.

Sometimes I wish I could freestyle rap, I think I would have a lot of good shit to say. I write songs. Not about anything, just about whatever I'm feeling. Whenever I have a feeling that I can't explain in one word, I express in about 300 words in song. Almost none of my songs rhyme, to me songs shouldn't be contained. I hate lot of people who write music. Most of them do it so organized. To me music should be just about whatever. Write what you want, sing if you want, even scream if you want. My dad once told me it's stupid for them to scream in the music I listen to, so I told him that music is about freedom. Music shouldn't be contained to just singing. Anyway, who the fuck thought of singing? I bet when it first came out, people thought it was stupid just like they think screaming is stupid now. Singing is just talking loud, and with rhythm. It's simple. Screaming is really hard, if you haven't tried. Try and make fun of it, you probably won't do it right.

I like it when it's warm, windy, and fog all together. I once had a dream about waking up before anyone else did, and then a bunch of weird thing which ended with me falling 30 feet from the air but not seeing where I was going cause it was so foggy. It was beautiful.

There's a thing that i hate, you know when something scares you or just bring you down so you say to yourself “okay, I need to stop thinking about this.” And because you say that to yourself, you think about this thing even more. That bothers me, you have no idea how.

Sometimes, I'm so paranoiac. I feel like someone's watching me or I have a strange feeling that there's some cameras in my own house. That's weird but it just how I feel.

This is me. I am random, I have a lot of thoughts. I see the true beauty in life. I do stupid things, just not too stupid. I am a lot of fun. I think beyond anything anyone else has ever thought of.

Seriously, I really think I'm a good person, going out of my way for people I love. If you're feeling down or anything just come and see me, I will always be there for you even if I don't know you. Sometimes people scare me. I don't understand why some persons are so mean.

I think I'm pretty funny too. I always laugh. You probably know someone in your school like that. You know, that person who laughs to the dumbest/stupidest/ worst jokes you ever heard. I'm this person. I laugh at every single joke and I laugh at my own jokes. I don't need a lot of thing to smile. Life doesn't need to be complicated. Life is good.

Right now I'm about to just go outside and walk. I live in a quiet neighbourhood, so now one will bother me. Message me, we'll talk about anything and everything.

I'm pretty weird, after all.